I do not know how many of you remember my blog post awhile back about me being real but here is more to the story.
As the time winds down to Christmas it is in all honesty a really emotional time of the year for me and the reason being is because once upon a time I was in an abusive relationship in which I got my butt kicked everyday for 7 years, in those 7 years I had two beautiful children and to make the decision to leave their father tore me to pieces. Some of you may ask why and I will tell you. When I chose to leave him he took the two children we had together and a lot of legal things went on that were not so legal, to make that long story short he has the kids and has not let me see nor talk to them in the last 5 years. They are 8 and 10 years old now and it drained me not just emotionally but financially fighting to get something done. I have learned to handle it and in all honesty it has made me a very loving and caring person. I once was a very cold and bitter person and after a couple of years I finally realized that living a cold and angry person wasn't getting me anywhere so I took the bad and turned it into something good. I firmly believe in paying it forward as much as possible and I am not just talking with money and gifts either, I am talking about being as genuine and real as you can be. I have made a lot of friends in the short few months that I have had my page and have loved helping everyone out in one way or another.
This is Bo my youngest son
This is Lynn my daughter
These are the most recent pictures I have of them and they are about a year old. Now how did I get this if he isn't allowing me to see or talk to them? Well he has a facebook page and it was "Open" so I downloaded as many as he had posted before he wised up and set his privacy setting LOL I know sneaky right? I am sure if anyone else were in my shoes they would have done the same thing.
The reason I am writing this is because I want each and every single one of you to look around you and truly soak in what you have right in front of you and always remember that someone else out there always has it worse than the next person. I do not in any way shape or form think I have it worse than anyone so please do not think that. I just think that so many people loose sight of the true meaning of Christmas especially when they are struggling with things in their lives. Make sense? I am sure it does.
I have sponsored two children this year for the Holidays from two different states and took it upon myself to give to a well deserving family right here in my town this year. Something has come over me to just give and give and I think it has a lot to do with "taking the negative and turning it into a positive". I have found that each and every time I do things from the heart it has been returned later down the road when I am least expecting it and in all honesty it brings a smile to my face and fills my heart with a whole lot of joy when I can help people out. My really close friends will tell yall that even if it was my last dollar I would still give it because that is the person I am, what they don't know is I once was not that way and am very proud to have changed.
Even though I do not have my two other children with me, I am very blessed to have the three that I do here with me and the most loving husband a girl could ask for. I am to blessed to be stressed!
I truly hope that each and every single one of you have a fantastic holiday filled with love and joy and always remember I am here to do what I can even if it is just to lend an ear.
~*~ I may not be pretty on the outside but I am beautiful on the inside ~*~